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Mental Health Issues are nothing to be ashamed of!

I’ve decided that I’m not going to worry about what people think of me anymore. Well, I’m giving it a bloody good go at least! Because, you know what, having Mental Health Issues really are nothing to be ashamed of! I have done nothing wrong and didn’t ask to have these illnesses so I feel I have an obligation to spread the word about my diagnosis and stop the stigma and ignorance that unfortunately still exists!

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I am diagnosed with Boarderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Anorexia, Clinical Depression and Anxiety. Quite a mouthful I’m sure you’ll agree.
Although I have suffered hugely with Depression and Anxiety it’s BPD and Anorexia that plague my life daily.
I have been been hospitalised and have attempted suicide numerous times. I self harmed a lot also, as a method of coping but can happily say that since last Christmas my suicidal tendencies have been pretty much not existent.
It has been hard don’t get wrong but I’ve had the amazing support from my husband and close friends that have really helped me fight and push on to recovery.

There have been times that I have had to fight harder than others, when that voice is a little louder but I am determined to get better!

I have been and am still on medication. Something else I was hugely ashamed of. I’m not on nearly as much as I was but I’m not going to force myself off of them just because I’m scared of what people are going to think of me!
Although having said that,  there is actually no specific medication for BPD. It is an illness bred from severe negative self views. I have a deep ingrained belief that I am a bad, horrible person and I have to work hard every day to get out of that mindset, or at least quieten it down a bit.
I do attend different types of therapy. Throughout my treatment I’ve attended MBT, CBT, group and individual therapy. I have found them all helpful in there own way. But the key to it really is wanting it! You have to want to get better. That doesn’t come easily.

I am learning, slowly, day by day, to accept what has happened in the past and forgive myself for mistakes. As I say it is very early days but I want to get better.  My son needs me and I want to be around to watch him grow up.

Stay strong and keep fighting.

lots of love

Amy x

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8 Comments

  • Reply Laura

    Without meaning to sound patronising, I think this is a really brave post, and extremely open of you. More of us need to be able to talk about these issues without stigma attached if we are to see the full spectrum of people represented properly in society.

    Love your writing – keep it up.

    October 12, 2016 at 7:02 pm
    • Reply amysboarderlineworld

      Not patronising at all!! Thank you so much for your kind words. Xxx

      October 14, 2016 at 6:44 am
  • Reply Sarah parsons

    Amy I think you are an amazing person I read this when ever am down and it picks me back up again cause I know we are a lot strong than what we think x

    October 13, 2016 at 12:46 pm
    • Reply amysboarderlineworld

      Ah thank you hun. That means so much to me. You are a strong beautiful lady. Sending lots of love to you xxx

      October 14, 2016 at 6:44 am
  • Reply FZN

    So many patients are afraid of therapy and asking for help, not realising the untapped potential of something as simple as the “talking remedy”. Treating a therapist as a sounding-board is a good way to begin: once the comfort level develops adequately, the fears begin to ebb away. Your blog itself is a version of therapy, and the ability to express yourself inspires others. You are an incredibly strong person and your desire to fight and try to get better is amazing, I wish you luck!

    November 5, 2016 at 12:40 am
    • Reply amysboarderlineworld

      Thank you so much for taking the time read and comment. It means alot. I agree talking therapy has helped more than anything else I’ve tried. If one therapy or therapist isn’t working don’t very afraid of trying a different one. Many thanks again xxx

      November 5, 2016 at 7:59 am
  • Reply Sarah Quell

    This is a wonderful post – so personal and accepting. I have BP “traits” which probably affected me more earlier and bipolar Depression. Like you I take tablets and will do so permanently. My life has been profoundly affected and people really don’t understand what it’s like…. I suppose that’s stigma, because it’s often, unintentionally, associated with judgement. I share my experiences with the hope it helps others feel less alone as well.

    November 25, 2016 at 12:12 pm
    • Reply amysboarderlineworld

      Hi Sarah thank you so much for taking the time to read my post. Well done for blogging too. I’ll have to check it out ? xxx

      November 25, 2016 at 4:57 pm

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