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Dear Depression

Dear Depression

First of all I don’t hate you.

I know for most of our time together you have made me unhappy to say the very least but now I am able to think differently.

In the past you made me look at everything in my life differently. Negatively.
You made me want to die but you also made me want to live. You taught me true love, friendship, gratitude and so much more. You taught me how to live again.
You made me a strong woman.
Having lived with you for quite a while now I’ve taken the time to find out about you in quite some depth. And I would now like to say;

dear-depression

Thank you!

Before you invaded my life I had no idea what I wanted to do in life. I thought I had completely failed. I loved being a mother and a wife but professionally I was well and truly lost! I thought I was destined to go from job to job for the rest of my life hating every single one. But now, thanks to you, I am determined to follow my heart and do what I really want. Seriously, what have I got to lose? Thank you for giving me that confidence and determination.

Thank you for telling me that everyone hates me and that no one cares about me. It enabled me to start doing things on my own and taking responsibility for my own happiness and my own life.

Thank you for bringing back my passion for art and creativity. I had lost it for such a long time. Never believing I was good enough or deserved time to pursue it. Now I make it a huge part of my life and I LOVE it!

Thank you for introducing me to so many new friends and strengthening the relationships between old ones. I am so blessed to have these amazing people in my life.

Thank you for forcing me to self-harm. And strange thank you I know, but I now have scars that I see daily, as a reminder of what I went through and how far I have come.

Thank you for teaching me gratitude. If it wasn’t for you I would have never realised the power of being grateful for everything in life. Big and small. I now say thank you hundreds of times a week and I am truly grateful for everything – including you.

Thank you for taking me to those awful places because without those journeys into darkness I would never have seen the amazing light in my life.

Thank you for teaching me so much.

I will be forever grateful that we met but I can assure you that we will never ever meet in the same way again.

Love Amy x

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7 Comments

  • Reply Wendy Jeffrey

    What amazing lady to come out and tell everybody so much courage X wish you lots of happiness and I will follow your story as we all have had that black dog in our lives xx trust your struggle with love mama Wendy xx brought tears to my eyes xxx

    October 17, 2016 at 10:22 pm
    • Reply amysboarderlineworld

      Thank you so much for your kind words. I truly appreciate you taking the time read and comment. Wishing you love and luck in your journey. Xxxx

      October 18, 2016 at 11:24 am
  • Reply Wendy jeffrey

    Fantastic and strong lady xx

    October 17, 2016 at 10:36 pm
  • Reply Candice Irving

    This is truly amazing and has inspired me so much, you are so brave and your story is so moving and I’m sure will help a lot of people like it has me. Candice xx

    October 19, 2016 at 5:53 pm
    • Reply amysboarderlineworld

      Hi Candice, thank you so much for getting in touch. You have been brave by doing that so well done, getting through mental illness is a tough journey but its possible. Wishing you lots of love and luck, Amy xxx

      October 20, 2016 at 7:08 am
  • Reply iris

    Hi Amy, thank you for sharing. You are such a brave woman for putting your story out there for everyone to read – and I found lots of strength from reading your blog. It’s comforting to know there are people out there struggling with mental health issue and conquering it, one day at a time. Keep writing.

    November 17, 2017 at 5:51 am
    • Reply amysboarderlineworld

      Hi There Iris. Thank you so much for reading and getting in touch. I am so glad that my blog is helping and I hope that you are well. Love Amy x

      November 21, 2017 at 1:41 pm

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