First of all I don’t hate you.
I know for most of our time together you have made me unhappy to say the very least but now I am able to think differently.
In the past you made me look at everything in my life differently. Negatively.
You made me want to die but you also made me want to live. You taught me true love, friendship, gratitude and so much more. You taught me how to live again.
You made me a strong woman.
Having lived with you for quite a while now I’ve taken the time to find out about you in quite some depth. And I would now like to say;
Before you invaded my life I had no idea what I wanted to do in life. I thought I had completely failed. I loved being a mother and a wife but professionally I was well and truly lost! I thought I was destined to go from job to job for the rest of my life hating every single one. But now, thanks to you, I am determined to follow my heart and do what I really want. Seriously, what have I got to lose? Thank you for giving me that confidence and determination.
Thank you for telling me that everyone hates me and that no one cares about me. It enabled me to start doing things on my own and taking responsibility for my own happiness and my own life.
Thank you for bringing back my passion for art and creativity. I had lost it for such a long time. Never believing I was good enough or deserved time to pursue it. Now I make it a huge part of my life and I LOVE it!
Thank you for introducing me to so many new friends and strengthening the relationships between old ones. I am so blessed to have these amazing people in my life.
Thank you for forcing me to self-harm. And strange thank you I know, but I now have scars that I see daily, as a reminder of what I went through and how far I have come.
Thank you for teaching me gratitude. If it wasn’t for you I would have never realised the power of being grateful for everything in life. Big and small. I now say thank you hundreds of times a week and I am truly grateful for everything – including you.
Thank you for taking me to those awful places because without those journeys into darkness I would never have seen the amazing light in my life.
Thank you for teaching me so much.
I will be forever grateful that we met but I can assure you that we will never ever meet in the same way again.
Love Amy x