I thought I would take the time to blog about the positives that come with BPD.
BPD is always seen as a negative and pretty awful diagnosis. I’m not saying that it’s a walk in the park or easy by any means I just thought it was important to shake things up and focus on those positives.
There were times that I would wish and pray that someone could just take this diagnosis away and that it would never have entered my life and darkened my door. Now however, I do think a little differently.
I don’t wish I never had BPD. Without it I wouldn’t be me! I wouldn’t be were I am today. I wouldn’t have the amazing people I now have in my life. There are definitely aspects of it that I wish wouldn’t be so severe but I am learning to look at the positives and be thankful.
Having BPD means I am;
- Extremely passionate – I feel all emotions to the very fullest. This does mean that I feel lows that are intense and debilitating at times but it also means I can feel the highs to the fullest as well. I feel extreme happiness and excitement and love intensely. This is something that most people will never get to experience. So I’ve got to be thankful for that!
- Very curious – I am literally the modern day Jessica Fletcher! It drives my husband a little crazy but I can’t help it. I don’t see things at face value. I dig and delve into any situation to get the truth and the facts. I see this as a positive be being curious like this makes me very interested. Whether it be in a person or event I will question and be genuinely interested. I’m eager to learn and know more that includes learning new things.
- Empathetic and loving – I think because I have felt what it’s like not to feel a strong sense of love towards me I never want anyone to feel the same. If I speak to someone having a tough time I will instantly be able to put myself in their shoes and try my hardest to make them feel better. I want to be able to make people happy . I want to enrich peoples lives and look after them. I will always put others first and I believe this is a huge positive in life.
- Loyal – Again this is not something I have really had a sense of in my life so I really want to ensure that people around me feel a sense of loyalty from me and know I will always be there for them no matter what. I feel this is a great positive attribute. Being that person that others can count on.
- Creative – I am definitely a very creative person. I have always loved art and creativity. I used it as a form of enjoyment absolutely but over the past few years it has been a form of therapy. I would draw, paint and create things I felt unable to say. Helping family members understand what I was feeling and going through. Writing is now my favourite form of being creative and I write every single day helping people all around the globe! I love it and I need it.
- Selfless and strong – This is a difficult one as I often don’t believe I am either of these things. But being in a ‘good’ place at the moment enables me to think clearly and logically and I can say I am selfless and I am strong. I mentioned before about putting peoples needs before my own and this is something I have always done and I believe will always do. What a great trait to possess. I believe so anyway. Strength is something I’ve had to have in abundance throughout my life. I have had to have strength to might the illness I live with. I have had to have the strength to continue with live as a wife, daughter, friend, mother. I have had to have the strength to survive when my mind desperately wants to die.
Boarderline Personality Disorder isn’t exactly a blessing but it certainly isn’t the awful curse that I once thought it was and I certainly don’t wish I never had it.
I have really enjoyed writing this post and focusing on the positives I have and am because of my BPD.
Lots of love