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    Mental health system failing those with children

    Mental health system failing those with children.

    I’ve written before about how the mental health system is failing people every single who are struggling with mental illnesses but it is especially failing those of us that have children.

    I have always tried to find childcare for my son(s) in the past for my appointments, be it therapy sessions or psychiatrist appointments but it really isn’t easy. My family all work full time, my husbands family also work and the friends that we do have that might be able to help have babies or young children of their own.

    My mental health team have never made it easy for me, it’s very much “Well that’s all there is” when it comes to appointments, take it or leave it!

    When I mention to people how difficult it is to get appointments I am often met with responses of “That’s ridiculous can’t they do evenings or weekends?” Truth is no they don’t do weekends or evenings. It’s usually between 9am and 4pm. Plus on top of this they are so stretched that if they offer you an appointment and you don’t take it you’ll be lucky if you’re offered another one in the next month or few months even!

    I was recently assigned a new CPN (6th one in 4 years!) she is just a useless in my opinion. I finally, after a 3 month wait, got an appointment with my psychiatrist for my urgent medication review as I had been crisis but my little boy was very poorly and there was nothing I could do but apologise, cancel and ask to rearrange asap! 2 weeks later she came for a visit and I asked if I was getting another appointment and her response to me was “Is there much point in booking another appointment if you’re just going to cancel!” Yep. That was really her response. Shocking huh!

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    Things have started turning again

    Things have started turning again.

    Turning, declining, slipping away.

    What might seem like nothing to some people is the beginning of a nightmare for me.

    The dishes are piling high.  The clothes are no longer clean. The floors are littered with toys and junk.

    I’m repeating tasks over and over terrified I’m going to forget something important.
    I can’t even look at myself in the mirror I’m just disgusted by what I see. My life is turning into chaos and all I can do is watch it collapse around me.

    It’s like everything is in slow motion and yet I can’t keep up. I can’t concentrate and it feels like I’m screaming at my senses to pay attention to what’s going on around me. Begging it to focus.
    I feel like I want to shake my head like crazy and then may be it’ll shake everything in there back in place.
    I can’t keep on top of the simplest tasks. My mind is fuzzy and confused. I feel like I’m not really here.

    Things have started turning again.

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    Moving house when you have mental health issues

    Moving house when you have mental health issues – and 6 things that I think would help.

    This is a post that I never really envisioned writing. However, it’s one that now seems very important since the last few weeks of moving house.

    Now, I’m a very organised person. I get things done. I do things quickly and efficiently. I do it my way and might be a pain in bum but I get it done well.
    I am actually a bit weird I guess as I love packing and unpacking. Arranging and organising- yeah weird I know!
    I’ve moved house 3 times before and not really found it stressful. Tiring and a bit annoying at times trying to get everything sorted how you want it but never really stressful.

    That is until move number 4!

    Moving house when you have mental health issues

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    Coronation Street Suicide, how do I feel after watching it?

    Coronation Street Suicide, how do I feel after watching it?

    Good question.

    Firstly I want to applaud Coronation Street for doing this story line and showing this awful illness in such a true to life way. They had clearly done their research. Especially the part where Aiden is sat in the pub surrounded by friends, family, music and laughter but feels so alone. In a poisonous bubble that he can’t escape. So powerful and something that I can completely relate to.

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    The guilt and shame of mummy rage

    This is a scary post to write and share with you. The guilt and shame of mummy rage.

    As always it is honest and as always I am writing in the hope that this might help other women who might be going through the same thing.

    I suffer with borderline personality disorder (BPD) so I am susceptible to sudden and sometimes extreme mood swings but I think the mummy rage that occurs would be present even without this diagnosis.

    I believe that I am strong person and I can handle quite a lot but when that critical point is reached (sometimes completely without warning) I can snap!

    Just recently I experienced this ‘snap’ again.

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    Breastfeeding and PND

    Breastfeeding and PND is about my feelings and experiences and is an all round tough post for me to write.

    I read recently that difficulty or not being able to breastfeed is one of the main causes of post natal depression (PND) and I can completely understand this. I think it was absolutely a main factor in my PND the first time around and has definitely contributed this time around also.

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    Being married to someone with mental health issues

    When you have a mental health problem, whether it be a personality disorder, depression or an eating disorder it’s all about you. Everything is all about you. And that is totally fine. As it should be. You concentrating on your recovery. However, something that – terribly – only occurred to me in the last year was how my husband might really be feeling.

    Being married to someone with mental health issues

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    Surviving Christmas with mental health problems

    Surviving Christmas with mental health problems

    Christmas is almost here! The shops are full to bursting of people buying gifts, food and drink. Everyone seems to be sharing their beautiful Christmas trees all over social media, the Christmas songs are now all that can be heard on the radio or in the shops. So this must mean we all become completely happy and full of joy!

    In an ideal world yes but this is not always the case.

    Surviving Christmas with mental health problems

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