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    How to help someone with PND

    I have suffered with PND (post natal depression) with both of my sons. Much more severely with my first son but it has still been present this time around. My son is now 8 months old and I am only just coming through my PND, with the help of medication and some amazing friends and family. These friends and family members are awesome but in the main part they didn’t know, at first what to do. They didn’t know what to say or what to do so that led me to this blog; How to help someone with PND.

    PND effects women very differently. The way PND effects me enables me to look after my sons and their needs. I am able to look after my husband and keep a household running but I will completely neglect myself. I feel like I don’t deserve the time and effort I put into everyone and everything else. If there is a small window of time I will almost always fill it with something to do with housework or my sons or husband.

    Exhausting doesn’t come close.

    How to help someone with PND

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    School summer holidays and their effect on my mental health

    Now that the holidays are a distant memory I am able to take a step back and really consider the school summer holidays and their effect on my mental health.

    If I am being totally honest I struggled with my mental health almost the entire duration of the school summer holidays. And although it pains and upsets me to admit it, I really didn’t enjoy them this year. I didn’t anticipate how difficult it was going to be with a 5 and half year old and a 7 month old baby. The age gap made it near impossible to do anything that they both enjoyed.

    School summer holidays and their effect on my mental health

    Most of my days were filled with guilt. I felt guilty for not spending enough time with H, it was his summer holidays, his break and it was filled with me saying “We can’t do this or play that because I need to look after your brother.” Then there was guilt for not spending enough time with T. It felt like more often than not he got sat on the living room floor surrounded by toys or left in the pram for the day if we did venture out.

    I felt guilty that the house was a complete mess and that I rarely managed to cook proper meals. I couldn’t write and blog as I was feeling so overwhelmed by everything, not a moment to myself and just wracked with guilt!

    I spent most of my days desperately trying to split my time fairly between the boys. T had pretty regular naps so my morning would be playing with him and H, only, not doing anything that H wanted! Then as soon as T went up for his nap it would be this manic rush trying to cram as much time in with H doing what he wanted to do. This would repeat during the day until the mad dinner time rush and I would only get a minute to breath when my husband arrived home at 6pm!

    I still look back and feel like a crap mummy for this years rubbish summer holidays but having spoken to a few friends I have realised I am not the only one who has struggled. A few mums have said that they really struggled keeping children entertained for the 6/7 weeks even without the age gap!

    I think there is so much pressure on parents to have the most amazing summer holidays, filled with breaks away, days out and lots of activities. But the reality is that this is not really possible! Firstly, it’s bloody expensive and two it’s mentally exhausting!

    Having come to the start of the new school year and thinking about the school summer holidays and their effect on my mental health makes me realise what incredible pressure we all put on ourselves! I made myself so poorly by trying to do everything and provide what I believed was the perfect summer holidays! Obviously I couldn’t sustain it and started to struggle.

    School summer holidays and their effect on my mental health

    Now don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I hated every moment. I did enjoy a lot of our days together, we had play dates with friends, saw family and chilled out together. Plus we did have an awesome last week of the holidays as my husband had the week off and we had several amazing days out. Also, with my husband off I was able to take a few moments to myself here and there which really eased the pressure.

    Since H has returned to school I’ve realised how much I crave routine. It seems to stop my anxiety reaching the crazy levels that it did and in fact I think it helps us all.

    My mental health has improved dramatically this past week. I have caught up on housework, I am writing, working and functioning so much better overall. My mood has lifted and it feels like the sun has come out again. I can see my purpose, I am excited about things and enjoying time with my husband and my boys.

    I am sure you’ve seen that post floating around on social media about there only being 18 summer holidays in your child’s life so you need to make the most of them! As if there’s not enough pressure!

    I am going to equip myself so much better next year and try to not beat myself up too much about not doing everything that I want to. There’s no such thing as perfect!

    I know my boys are not bothered at all about this years holidays at all so why should I be?!

    If you do ever find yourself in a position where you are struggling Mind are a fantastic charity that can help. Click here to get in touch.

    Try and enjoy everyday. Worrying only steals today’s joy.

    Lots of love,

    Amy x

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    My love hate relationship with the NHS

    The NHS have just celebrated their 70th birthday which saw social media, news channels, newspapers and magazines full to bursting with amazing stories of the NHS being nothing short of fabulous. Because of this it makes this post ‘My love hate relationship with the NHS’ a little scary to post.

    It’s a scary thing to write because, as always I never know what the response will be. My love hate relationship is split between the great things it has done to help my son and the truly hideous way that I have been treated for my mental health.

    My love hate relationship with the NHS

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    5 Tips for coping in the heat when you have mental health issues

    I love the sun. I love heat. I am a complete sun worshipper. However, my mental health really seems to take a dive in this heatwave weather. That’s why this post 5 Tips for coping in the heat when you have mental health issues popped into my mind. If I struggle then other people are probably struggling too.

    I’m sure that may sound a bit stupid to some people (ungrateful even?) but it honestly makes everything so much harder and it all just feels too much.

    I was saying to a friend the other day that if it was this hot on holiday then great! I could lay by the pool, take a dip when needed, go back to the air conditioned room if it all got too much. Nothing was really expected of me and I could relax. However, when it’s a heatwave at home you don’t get that. You still have the school run to contend with. You still have the housework, the cooking, the usual day to day work and plus this country is just not equipped for this kind of weather. We have 3 fans pushing around hot air in our house and it just doesn’t cut it! Plus it makes babies miserable. My 6 month old has struggled quite a bit. Not eating because he’s too hot, then being up all night to top up. Not napping as hes too hot then crying and whinging – even screaming – all day. Enough to make anyone get stressed out!

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    Don’t let anxiety win

    This week and last week in particular have been some of those ‘Don’t let anxiety win!’ kind of weeks.

    I am absolutely exhausted by it. Mentally, emotionally and psychically.

    Anxiety has been with me for as long as I can remember and it really sucks! It’s also really misunderstood. I was told just last week to “just calm down”, “stop doing this all the time” “just stop worrying about it!” Very unhelpful when you are in the throws of an anxiety attack.

    Last week I had awful anxiety was because of an event I was attending in London with one of best friends. I had booked it months ago. I was so looking forward it but anxiety had other ideas. As of the Sunday anxiety hit and there was no calming it…

    Don't let anxiety win!

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    5 Things I’ve learnt about being an empath

    Being an empath is really an amazing gift.5 Things I’ve learnt about being an empath

    I love being an empath I truly do but it’s not without it’s difficulties. I have often heard people say that sympthy and empathy are the same things but they really aren’t.

    The dictionary states;

    Sympathy; feelings of pity and sorrow for someone else’s misfortune.

    Empathy; the ability to understand and share the feelings of another.

    A good example of the differences between the two was given to me in a group therapy session a few years ago and it really stuck with me.

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    Anorexia and me

    Anorexia and me.

    How would you feel if you were told every day that you were fat? Huge? Disgusting? You were told that the revolting way that your body moves around puts people off of their food. They are disgusted by you and your body. When summer approaches and you start showing more skin it makes others around you want to vomit.

    How would you feel if you were told you were pathetic. You can’t do anything right – ever. You are not only ugly on the outside but on the inside as well. Everyone is either laughing at you or disgusted by you.

    How would you feel if your best friend spoke to you like that?

    Anorexia and me.

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    Summer holiday ideas come rain or shine

    So the summer holidays are approaching (far to quickly in my opinion) a mere 2 weeks away! So I thought I best get my bum in gear and think of some summer holiday ideas come rain or shine that we we can all enjoy.

    As my eldest is only in Reception we have only had one real set of summer holidays last year and in all honesty I wasn’t very prepared. This time I wanted to ditch the stress and have some ideas in place.

    We have well and truly been spoiled the past 3/4 weeks with hot weather and beautiful sunshine but we do live in England and more often that not it does tend to rain for the majority of the kids summer holidays. So I need to have ideas for outside and inside but also on a bit of a budget too. Now I am lucky in some respects as H is just like me and does love his arts and crafts but on the other hand he gets bored very very quickly – also like me!

    summer holiday ideas come rain or shine

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    When self harm returned

    Before I begin this post please note that it could be a trigger to you if you suffer with self harming. Please look after yourself and if you are not in a ‘good’ or strong enough place then save ‘When self harm returned’ for another day.

    I have been so long now without having to resort to any kind of self harm. It was so long without doing it that the thought of doing it again was so far off in my mind, I seriously could not imagine bruising or cutting my skin again. That is until just a few days ago.

    Now firstly let me just put out there how terrified I am to post this. I am so scared that people are going to judge me. That they are going to laugh and mock me. What if they are disgusted by me? Or what if they just plain avoid and ignore me? Honestly my heart is pounding! But as I’ve said again and again I do this for the readers of this blog. So many of whom – I know because you contact me – say that these open and honest blog posts are what help the most. Not sugar coated or just part of the story, open, honest and real. So for you guys here goes…

    When self harm returned

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    School anxiety I feel as an adult!

    Yes it’s true, this post is about the school anxiety I feel as an adult! In fact I feel like I’m more anxious now than when I was at school sometimes!

    Just a few weeks away marks the end of my eldest sons first year at school. End of Reception class. Now I assumed, quite naively, that Reception would be just like preschool. 80% playtime with a small amount of structured work.

    Boy was I wrong!

    I’m not necessarily saying that I wish it was like that I was just not prepared at all. Having said that 4/5 year olds really do have a lot of work to do. Homework every week. Reading books every week and lists of words to learn each evening. I can barely keep up! Cue anxiety.

    School anxiety I feel as an adult!

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